Sunday, February 18, 2007

A new link, old links

It's like Barbara Walker, but better, cause it's digital.

But the truth is, I would have rather not found it.
I need to knit a prayer shawl for a funeral on Tuesday.
Prayer may not be the word for it. I don't really pray, as such. But my views on religion are a rant for another day. No, my high school basketball coach had a stroke and died last week. He was only slightly older than my own parents and in better physical shape (sorry mom, but it's true). Enter mortality issues.
But we've all had loss, we've all faced those same issues. I'm not going to go through mine. They're the same ones everyone goes through when we're confronted with death, especially when it's unexpected like this.
We hadn't really spoken since I graduated high school. I had seen him maybe twice since then. Still, I have several years of memories of him, and beyond that, there were more things he represented to me on a philosophical level.
The girls on the team knew his family, his wife and the two daughters who are a bit younger than me. I don't know if his wife would remember me now, it's been so long. I'll be sure to introduce myself to spare her the awkward moments of trying to remember. But still, I have all the aching hopes for her that we all have for anyone who is grieving. Comfort, peace, strength. Even some sadness, because the sadness is necessary for a little while.
I don't have the right words to express it to her, or the time with her to say it I did. There are so many people who are so much closer to them that are better deserving of her time. I can't share all the memories I have of her husband, or all the things he represented for me.
So I'll knit her a prayer shawl. I knit. It's what I do. It's how I cope. Better than smoking, right? I'll knit those thoughts and memories into it, and even though she'll never know the details, I hope she can appreciate the symbolism.
It's as much for me as it is for her.


Carrie Penny said...

That wasn't my whole stash just what I think that I might use in the next month...I am going to have to keep a rotation...HA! That is why it is the cleaned stash room, I couldn't even navigate it before! I have boxes of blue, pink, white, vari, black, wool, acrylic etc in the attic...HA!

Kristine said...

I'm so sorry to hear that... I had a similar thing happen to me when I was in college- a choreographer/coach for an iceskating team I was on for 4 years passed away from a heart attack. It was really sad, but I do remember that his wife and kids were ok hearing about how great he had been to the skaters.

Anonymous said...

thcaree. the prayer shawl was very nice. i forgot to tell you. see you friday. the partay is probably starting earlier. w00t!